never once did we ever walk alone. never once did you leave us on our own. you are faithful, God, you are faithful.
for those of you who have been praying for my family, thank you so much. my sister and i made it to the heart hospital in austin monday morning. when we got there the doctors had just told us that her eyes would not dilate/respond to light, which meant brain swelling. we spent the day with family, though the day was very difficult. in the afternoon my mom’s two brothers and their families left austin to come back to dallas, so only my family was left with our cousin and her son. they left around 7 to go spend the night at a friend’s house. around 9 my sister went into my aunt’s room with my mom. i was left in the waiting room by myself. i spent the time listening to worship music and praying. never once by matt redman came on, and i cranked up the music. the words became my declaration as i cried out to God. i didn’t even make it to the second verse without crying, haha. i felt the peace of God in that moment like i haven’t felt in a long time. a few minutes later my sister came back and so it was my turn to go back and see her for the last time. i walked into the room, went over and hugged my mom and just started sobbing. at this point i knew that this would be the last moments that i would have with my aunt. my mom tried to calm me down but it didn’t help much. i knew that the body lying there with a machine breathing for her and dozens of wires and tubes over her really wasn’t my aunt. my mom and i agreed that she was with the Lord, and if not she would be soon. they say that hearing is the last to go, so i went to her side and held her hand and talked to her for a minute or so. right before i left i said, “peg we love you & even though i have to leave now, i know that i’ll see you soon.” i don’t know if she heard me or not, and it doesn’t matter. what matters is that i know with all of my heart that God is still good. i know with all of my heart that God is still faithful. i know with all of my heart that peg is with the Lord and is fully healed and fully restored and fully alive.
after final tests were done on tuesday morning, we were told that there were no neurological responses in her brain. shortly after, a transplant team contacted my cousin and my mom and asked if we would we willing to let peg’s organs (that were still good) be donated. instantly my cousin agreed. while we grieve, we do not grieve as those without hope. i know where she is and while this is still hard and still painful, there is hope. i am also comforted by the fact that there are families out there tonight who have been holding out hope & now have an answer, now have new hope. once my mom put on her facebook that peg had died, one of our friends commented and said that peg will live on in our hearts and through the lives of the recipients. yeah that pretty much sums it up.
so while these months have been terribly rough, i will choose to bless the name of the Lord! we press on with praise in our lips. God is still good. God is always faithful.
again, thanks to everyone for all the prayers. they mean more than you could ever imagine.
“never once did we ever walk alone. never once did you leave us on our own. you are faithful, God, you are faithful.”
